last year three boys auditioned for drum corps, two snares and a trumpet. they were fully supported and encouraged. my teacher would give advice to a few drummers on the edge of auditioning about choosing a corps and whatnot. he’d try to seem super cool to kids because he marched dci.
yet here i am,
auditioning for a drum corps
in the front ensemble.
but nearly no one who actually knows about it is necessarily supportive. surely not encouraging.
my teacher gives me nothing but negative judgement.
“you want to do drum corps??” (you?! a girl?! from the pit?!?!)
“you’re missing rehearsal? because of camps??” (but he boasted at our rehearsals about the boys being at corps camps/auditions last year)
“wow, your mom’s supportive of this decision?!?” (as if she shouldn’t be)
not to make it sound like i deserve some sort of medal or high recognition, but honestly people really should be supportive and encouraging instead of critical and judgemental. (or honestly, they should be indifferent about my own fucking life decisions)
a. i’m trying to pursue my dream
ab. my musical dream
b. i can’t name the last time a girl from our school even auditioned for a drum corps (brass, guard, or percussion)
c. i can’t name the last time someone from the front ensemble (boy or girl) at our school auditioned or even thought about auditioning.
people (mostly aimed toward my school, but also in other places) think the front ensemble brings less to the group than everyone else, but honestly the group wouldn’t be the same without it. they think it’s somehow easier?! hell no. don’t fight me on this, you (general “you” aimed toward the types of people i’m talking about, not specifically you reading this) can never grasp just how much work pit members do and how much they contribute. (and im not saying we do more either).
people (many the same from above) believe that women are not as good as men. they don’t have the strength/endurance, don’t have the chops, don’t have the musicality, don’t have the technique to live up to the men. and that’s absolute BS. which I don’t even understand how this can be believed by people in my program because many of our top players and many of our leaders are the girls. our program president, drum major, flute, clarinet, saxophone, trumpet, guard, pit section leaders are all females. gender or sex do not determine someone’s talent and abilities.
it’s nearly 2K14, but apparently we still can’t grasp this concept.
in one day, i took more photos with my cat than i did in 1.5 years with my ex.
and today i got the best compliment ever.
this guy in band with me asked if i sang or anything and said that i should because i have a really nice voice or that i should do voice-acting.
ive always hated my voice and it’s a nice compliment because it’s something about myself i can’t change and is distinct to me.
then we talked about how small and limited my vocal range is. i have this non-graded music theory class, and i honestly have trouble singing even just one octave.